I am a mother of three children. It just so happens that I am raising them on my own. Over 20 years ago I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior.
Counselling in Cabinet became a true miracle and a special blessing in my life. I went there with my unresolved problem which for years had pressed on me and affected the life of those near me.
Before the first meeting I was fearful and anxious. How can one reveal the innermost hurt to several people at a time, especially when I do not even know them well? But the desire to understand myself and receive answers to my questions was stronger.
I thank God for the wisdom and sensitivity of my counsellors. They were ready to listen to me attentively, to examine my need thoroughly, to dedicate their time to it, to pray for me. All that was done for one purpose – to help me solve my problem.
Coming to each meeting, I was feeling that because of consistent, concrete questions, based on Biblical logic, and home assignments something new was happening to me. I was learning to understand my heart in the light of Scripture. Sometimes it seemed to me that I was being turned inside out; sometimes I did not want to come anymore because a deep realization of my sinfulness suppressed me so much.
But I praise my Lord for working in my heart, for that hard but blessed work. I was led to disclose the lie I had believed for many years. I realized that I had been focusing on myself which had prevented me from seeing the beauty of my Christ, and in those responsible for my troubles I could now see sinners who needed Him like I did.
There were moments in our conversations when it seemed to me that I was just standing on the cement covering my stone heart and I could not move. But I thought it was a miracle as I felt the work of God’s transforming grace inside of me and the cement becoming softer and softer. God showed me a completely different reality in which all the authority belonged not to my ‘Self’ but only to my King and Savior Jesus Christ.
I keep praising my Lord for this experience. Every time I feel that I am getting lost for some reason and that my heart is becoming callous, I go back to the notes made during counselling sessions to remind myself Who is the Lord of my heart.
Katya